Hello I suppose I should start this entry as I probably should have started this blog entirely, that is, with a brief introduction. First I would like to say I started and remain at this a novice. Well admittedly more than a novice more like clueless. I was searching for something in life at large and something in life in the immediacy to put some vitality back into my days. Shy beyond words to express rather shut in, into my home literally for several years agoraphobic, and figuratively into myself with my melancholic disposition and decades long eating disorder. The picture at the bottom of these updates the "TEST" post is me a little earlier on in my recovery the picture to follow, albeit blurry (sorry), is me as of today, nearly recovered.

I dove headlong into the process of YouTube and a blog about making myself happier in hopes of making some other people happier along the way if they should happen to stumble on my blog my YouTube (link below I'm still relearning this) or my page on soundtrap.com  (linked below also as I forgot how to add buttons). I do have naive ideas that I would like to make the world a better place and no know how to make that happen. So yes if any of my web-o-sphere activity brings even entertainment let alone help to anyone on their own journeys in life toward happier healthier fuller existance I would be delighted. But I as noted am a novice and I bit off more than I could chew. I didn't know the first thing about YouTube or blogging or building anything on the web. In fact I was pretty talented to be using my email and turning the computer on; I know its sad in today's era where three year-olds can make their own domain, but that was my skill level. I've grown since then from nothing to novice at-least on YouTube but I am still a nothing on the blog side. I have been learning this from zero knowledge and managing both things was more than I could handle. Especially as I was starting from a rather dark and broken place having the resolve and energy to dedicate to learning new skills and applying productivity with discipline to keep them up and running was more than I anticipated and more than I could handle. So this blog sat relatively unused and I am still learning (relearning ) as we speak how to post an update let alone work my way around the many opportunities properly navigating this page offers.

If you are still reading this your a winner. I had to give a little something for hanging onto this tirade. Id like to apologize for my lack of proper upkeep and my lack of skill on this site I am going to give it another go.
Resilience follow through learning new skills and discipline are all routes to happiness by the way. And that elusive little ... er um,... beauty, happiness is what we are all after in the end is it not. A successful life is a happy life. And I am as much a work in progress on this road as is this blog. If you would like to go along with me on both these journeys your welcome to follow and watch me learn blogging and happiness on here or YouTube or both.

If I help you I have lived my life purpose.
If I make you smile you have made my day.

I may not know what I am doing here but I know that doing it brings me joy. And joy is the ultimate reward in life, next to love, which also brings joy.

As for me otherwise I am just now on the "wrong side" of 35. And I can't give much more than that for now just in-case you are a serial killer. LOL ;)   And I'm learning everyday that I have so much more to learn. 

Welcome! or Welcome back.
Smile it looks good on you

-Brena-

www.soundtrap.com/disastergirl
www.youtube.com/channel/UCs4PrqNX6Q4V9p7cVJH75Hw?view_as=subscriber